In the spirit of the new year, I have decided to commit some thoughts to paper. They follow:
I am tired of friction.
I am tired of small-mindedness.
I am tired of things not being perfect.
I am tired of days where I don't feel fully engaged.
I am tired of relationships that are not completely and utterly honest, loving and fulfilling.
I want to learn more.
I want to make new friends.
I want to write on regular basis.
I want to have deep conversation more often.
I want to be more open in my love towards my friends.
I want to start building things that are truly significant.
Over the years I have been accused of being unwilling to compromise over a number of things. There was an implication that I ought not only to accept the thing[s] in question, but that at least on some level I ought to be happy or grateful for them as they were, as well.
I reject this line of thinking.
I have learned to accept the behavior of things as they are - that is, to not expect them to change.
But to be happy about it? No. I cannot be happy about it.
From this point forward, those things that bring me growth, joy, and love will be accepted and welcomed without condition, as I have come to learn to do. But those things that keep me in stasis, that bring me sadness or anger - those, I have no room for any more.
To those who would reject my feelings on the subject and accuse me of isolationism or worse, I say: go forth, then, and live your lives. I am trying to build a better and more perfect life, and if you would stand in the way of that then I shall build it without you.